Chasing Rabbits

Hmmmm, what on earth am I going to blog about? I have been a bit "under the weather" really since I found out I was prego. Also some very weird things have happened to me. Bronchitis, food poisoning, cracked rib, sinus infection, chronic cough-did I mention the rib thing???, and fever blisters of death. Sometimes I think I might be sick all nine months. Not morning sickness, thank you, Jesus, but just yuck. Maybe it is those adorable pre-k kiddos, maybe it is Tracen and I just giving it back and forth, and maybe it is just how it is for now. I am tired of the fog and tired of not being able to roll over or get up very easily. Preparation for the next months? I also hate that I have taken so many medicines during the early weeks of this pregnancy. Oh yeah, we had a sonogram and saw the little thing, heart going to town at 145/min. Since Tracen was high risk, I was spoiled into believing all sonograms were the same. TOTALLY WRONG! The one we just had 2 weeks ago was like from the ice ages. So fuzzy, blurry, far away, and just awful. With Tracen I had one a week, and they were at the specialist's office. It was so encouraging, no matter what was going on in his brain, to be able to see him move around every week. I rememeber that I would always tell the lady to not show me his face in the 3D one. We didn't find out what Makenna was, and we did not intend to with Tracen either. I wanted at least something to be a surprise. Little did I know the way he would enter the world would be very surprising! Emergency c-section anyone? My mom has already had one request of me this time. I think her exact words were, "Please, please just have a normal pregnancy and delivery this time. My heart cannot take anymore like the last two." Amen, sister! I am praying for normal...whatever that is. Maybe I should be more specific? I also have to find a new doctor. I love the one I have, but she had to sign something with her group saying she would not do VBACS. I am really wanting to try for this plan, so I have to find someone who will do this with me. Pray for that. I have a peace about it, but just want to have someone soon. So this post is about a bunch of nothing and a lot of something. So many people have had such a hard October and now November. Babies, Mothers, Sister-in-laws, health...all gone. My mind thinks of these things constantly, and I have been so sad right along with them. What is going on, God? I have asked that a lot, and I know he does not mind. I also know he is still the same as he always has been. My next post will be about miracles, and I hope some of you will share yours as well. Start thinking...